6w4d

ever been car sick? or sea sick? ever taken too many codeine?
i live in a constant state of "ohmygod i might vomit".
if i move my head too quickly i gag.

funny thing is....this is SO MUCH BETTER than last time!! so far i have only vomited once. and i gag, on average, 5-10 times a day. With the pregnancy in December I was gagging 20-50 times a day and vomiting at least once a day.

Also, i pulled something in my jaw, so the gagging is even more enjoyable. not sure how i did this. could be some extracurricular activities. uh-hem. cough cough. have i mentioned that i am not aloud to have sex?

i am pretty sure the other mom's at the bus stop know something is up. i have worn the same nasty pajamas and hat for the last week. i never wear makeup. i am always drinking tummy tea or sucking on lemon drops. a couple days ago i went to the bus stop with a big glass of spicy V8. do normal people drink this? or just old men and pregnant women.

Each day that we get closer to the big ultrasound, the more nervous i get. i keep playing it in my head. i hear him say "there is the heartbeat!" and then i remember what it sounded like when told "we don't see a heartbeat"......i don't know if i will be prepared for either outcome....i have put a lot of my emotions on hold until that moment.


new cravings:

chicken noodle soup

and that is it. nothing else sounds good at all. i have filled the pantry with chicken noodle soup. it is coming out of my pours....like really. i think my sweat smells like it. so gross. i am going to take a shower now. pregnancy is SOOOO sexy.